a TRUE journal by Aid(en) that u'll never b-lieve...

ok, u won't trust me on this, but listen when i say it's real. 'coz it is. and i wish SO fucking much it wasn't...

so me and Scott where walking around outside at about 3 am NYC time. we where b-ing real quiet and shit... but then some guy grabbed Scott. i tried 2 fight him off, but Scott told me 2 run 4 help. while i was getting Mr. Loathes (my foster dad) this is what happened 2 Scott:

(i have no idea, so i'll let Scott type it) the man took off my pants & shit and beat me with a fucking boot... then he fucked me up the ass. i swear i'd never felt so effing violated in my fucking life... then he shoved me up against the wall and molested me... and then nocked me out with the boot and the wall. i'm guessing he threw my clothes on me and ran, 'coz that's how i woke up... (back to Aiden now...)

when me, Mr. Loathes, Mrs. Loathes, and our nieghbors (the Randols) came back, Scott was on the ground with his pants covering his lower half... he had a trickle of blood running from his mouth, but looked otherwise un-harmed... Mrs. Loathes (pronounced Low-thay-z) ran over 2 him and woke him gentally. we took him home.

scott hadn't seen the man's face, so our dad went looking around the streets... he still hasn't come back.

the next day, i was out around the same area at about 9 (i know, i'm stupid as fuck) and the man caught me. he shoved me against the wall and pulled out a knife. he told me my brother tastes so good... XP gross... and i saw his face. i didn't recognize him, but he told me 2 open my mouth or he'd kill me. i would have let him, but i have a girl 2 live 4. after i opened my mouth, he grabbed my toung and said i'd never tell any1 about this EVER... and he started 2 cut my tongue.

i was crying my ass off it hurt so fucking bad... he only got 3/4 way through when a police car passing by saw us. they came out and arrested him on the spot.

honestly, i really wish he'd cut my tongue out all the way... i never wanna talk about my bitch of a life again. and i can't... but it doesn't help 2 have a severed tongue in myt mouth 2 remind me of that fucking rapist.

no1 knows if i'll honestly b able 2 speak again... i don't think i want 2.

@ lizzy: Travis was out of town when this happened, so he's not harmed.

@ Gill: i love you, and please b-lieve me. i need sum1 2!!!

@ every1 else: Scott's really freaked out, so if he disses u or anything, it's 'coz he just got raped!!! so give him a break, k???

thanks 2 those of u who believe me!!!